I’m exhausted, but I’ve calmed down and I can write a more positive…well, a more accepting blog today.
Things are, for the time being, settled. Which means for all intents and purposes, I am pretty much on my own. It sucks, to not put too fine a point on it, and for now I don’t trust myself to delve too deeply into my emotions on this, but at least my expectations are in a more realistic place and I don’t feel like things are so…one-sided and futile. And that’s all I’m going to say about that, because the headache is starting and that’s not helpful.
So I’ve primarily been trying to focus on what I have to get done today, re: work, and then had a spur of the moment (which is not like me at all) visit with my Mom, where we went to Michaels which thank God has their Christmas stuff up. So I am semi-covered in glitter and got some new Christmassy things, then we got Starbucks (I actually like the pumpkin spice lattes, which I’ve never tried before, so that was a win) and had a really good visit.
I think, therefore, I am going to go back to my oldest distraction/cheering up strategy during the Fall (which I’ve realised is my least favourite time of the year because this is usually when all the really sucky things happen – it’s the Monday of seasons for me, albeit a very pretty season with dress-up options), which is to dive into Christmassy things as much as possible. I’d been sort of saving Christmassy things because I was planning/hoping to share them all with my significant other, but I don’t really know if or when that will be possible this year, and I need the…Yuletide bubble of glittery, pine-scented joy. So I am going to put together a Christmas specials list (because I have very repetitive paperwork that goes nicely with movies), and re-construct my Christmas playlist because my computer decided that could be randomly deleted :o/ And tonight I shall commence Operation: Winter Wonderland. Hopefully with pictures to share with all you lovely people, because fun things are good to share.
If anyone has suggestions for music or movies or cool decorating ideas, you will absolutely make my day :oD
I love all your faces. Thank you for listening to me ramble. I hope everyone had an excellent Halloween, if that’s your thing. And if not, today marks day one of awesome candy sales, so enjoy the daylights out of that.